I am a host of the L-rd of Hosts. A human vessel for divine beings within and without me enveloped with the cords of G-d’s power who directs all that I do and say. The divine beings are the person of the spirit of the Holy G-d who alighted upon me in 2007 and HaShem who is in the person of His spirit together with His Presence of the person of the Holy G-d.
This is what the maltreatment, chastisement, punishment, bruising and crushing is for. To make me stronger emotionally. To be more of a soldier to His purpose. To protect me from the haters and naysayers and to not be embarrassed by the disbelief of others.
There are a mountain of tasks in front of me that I would not do on my own that are outside of my character. G-d will protect my emotions in His power so that I enjoy it to the full out of my anguish of chastisement and punishment. He will decide what I feel emotionally and for how long.
I have a credit line of emotional well being paid for with ten years of maltreatment, bruising, crushing, chastisement and punishment by the words and power of G-d. The stories of what He has done to me to make me suitable for His purpose over that ten years could fill a small library. A private library. The backside of G-d is a terrible thing to behold and some things are better left unsaid.
26And I will make your tongue cleave to your palate, and you shall be dumb; you shall not be a reprover to them, for they are a rebellious breed. 27But when I speak with you, I will open your mouth, and you shall say to them, ‘Thus says the Lord God!’ He who listens will listen, and he who does not will not—for they are a rebellious breed. Ezekiel 3/26-27 Tanakh JPS 1985.
“To the greatest degree possible for any human being, Moshe’s identity and existence became one with the Creator. He surrendered himself to G-d to the extent that our sages say, “The Shechinah (Divine Presence) spoke through Moshe’s throat” (Zohar vol. 3, p. 232a)—i.e., he was G-d’s veritable mouthpiece on this earth.” —Sefer Hasichos 5749, vol. 1, p. 290, fn.”
I am a host of the L-rd of Hosts. A human vessel for divine beings within and…
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